Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Don’t Eat Yellow Snow

How many times have those words come out of my mouth…from the time I was 17…I have had children and commands flew out of my mouth on a regular basis…each one thinking I was being a complete bitch


Pick up your room…rinse the glass you just used…pick up your shoes…we do not use make up on the dog…do your home work…switch the loads…no, the cat does not need nail polish...sweep the floor…do not put the goldfish in the tub

I would make any company commander look like chump change

For most of my adult life I was a single mother…I always had a house full of children…weather they were mine or just children I was blessed with…for this reason…time and money were both a heavy thought…safety and security were also big factors

Since money was always tight…I worked 2-3 jobs 6 days a week…Saturday was usually my day off…I was recently reminded of ‘cleaning day’…anytime I was not at work, there was always so much to be done…

I was always very open with my children…many times I was told I should hide things from them…Now looking back, I am glad I was open with them…each one has hit the ground running

Do I still want to yell? Yes…now more than ever…it is no longer my job though

How do you say it…if he doesn’t want to meet your parents, he is not serious and doesn’t respect you…paying someone else’s bills is stupid…drinking is just dumb…pay your bills on time…bring the kids to visit…call at least once a week

You don’t…you sit on your hands and shut your mouth…you wait and pray…just like you made your mistakes, they must make theirs

When they call or come by…you treasure it…you have to give advice only when asked…when they hurt you hurt…when they are happy…you do your best to be happy for them

Reality states that things never go that easy…mine all have this streak of independence, I don’t know where they get it from…my true rule is, if I feel strongly about something, I will speak my mind…it always amazes me that my family tends to forget that…each one of them counts on it though…they also know I have their back

As a parent, you always wonder how much really sinks in…I have been listening when each has called, sent mail or e-mail, seeing video…they may never admit it, but you can hear yourself in them…you can see yourself in the choices they make (this is not always a good thing)…you can start to see things in view of the full circle

You can somewhat relax…it is now time for you to live your own life...you will worry…it is okay…they will find there way and learn life lessons along the way…no need to shout commands any more…you can now be the person of love…May you all be so blessed


2 comments:

  1. Families are a big soup of emotions, sometimes they boil over, but when the ingredients are just right its heaven on a plate – this simile is going too far, but you get the picture, or the bowl - you have the magic ingredien D, empathy!
    May the Boudica Circle shine on the fruit of your loins.
    Love and peace
    Chris

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  2. yes...I have learned so much from Rose...I am thankful for your wife

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